"MY FRIEND FLASHBACK"
Months ago we had already gone to the funeral and buried my dad and allowed our self to move on. Until then my mum remarried a man named David. He was quiet, kind and respectful but distant. Too distant.
At first I didn't mind. I had my own world at school, art and my best friend Talia. But as months went on the gap between me and my step dad grew wider. He had come home from work , nod at me then disappear into his office. At dinner he barely said a word to me, only speaking to my mum about bills and schedule.
It wasn't that David was cruel. He never yelled at me or my siblings, never punished me, never said anything out of line. But the silence, the constant, thick silence felt like rejection. Also looking at me in a different way of hypnotizing.
But my mum never notice anything about him the way he was behaving and also looking at me when we had dinner together. Only that my mum was in love, finally happy after months ago of loosing my dad. And i didn't want to ruin it.
When my mum started going to night shift most of the time and left us alone with my step dad, It was not a big deal because we had him at home, but he started acting up most of the time. He came to my room and started staring at me and left.
One day he snicked into my room when I was asleep and started touching me. I was nervous and scared. I asked him what he is doing but he told me to be calm and not to tell anyone about it.
I deliberately feel like he was a bad guy and he was just pretending to be a silence person. He gets to do that more and more over. I tried to tell my mum about the behaviour of his man but my mum never gave me time to speak with her.
After school one day, I found him home and he welcomed me nicely. He told me to go to their room and bring him his wallet. Literally he came after me and closed the door and grabbed me and started removing my clothes. He covered my mouth and he took advantage of me because I couldn't push him away from me. He was heavyweight. He raped me and left me crying their. I was bleeding and also it was difficult for me to stand up from there.
When my mum came back from work, she found me in my bed lying there and she was like who did this to you my dear. I cried with alot of anger regarding how my mum used to ignore me when I wanted to talk to her.
I explained to her when it started and how it went but she told me not to tell anyone about it because the guy will leave our house and go. It was a marenight to me on the response of my mum.
I kept quite and avoided him but he didn't talk to me again, and that's how I ended up being a lesbian because of the hatred I had towards mens and it made my heart feel bad up to now.
By Ruth Minoo.